It's Not About Me!!!!

I have had a pretty interesting week. I feel like I have been attacked and messed with all week long. It’s been a constant battle for me in the mornings. I feel like I have been told that I can’t do anything right, that I might as well quit while I am head. WELL, it’s a dang good thing that I don’t my live based off of my emotions!! I live based on the perfect will of God in my life. I might feel the pressure from time to time but I know that God is in control. I understand that he is preparing me for something amazing. My heart has never been more stretched, torn, and polished in my entire life. I find myself asking what you are up to God. Through all of this I have come to this conclusion.

IT’S NOT ABOUT ME!!! I have felt the past few weeks that I have been waking up and the devil has been right there in my face trying to make me run off my emotions. How I am “feeling” about me. It’s seriously like I was one of those whined up toys and every time I came before God in the morning I would come with an “It’s all about me” attitude. Man, I have I been convicted. I keep asking myself, “How did I fall into this trap?” I dove into God’s word and this is what he began to lay on my heart.

One of the things I think the enemy wants us to do is have a selfish attitude about ourselves and about God. Think for a second, our selfish attitudes can cause division and separation between us and other people in our lives. It can impact our walks with God to the point that we forget to ever ask God what HE wants, it ALWAYS turns out to be what WE want. It becomes all about us. It becomes about our emotions and how we feel. Do you not think that God already knows and cares about how we “feel”? His word tells us that he knows us better than we know ourselves. I know he does. So I feel like we need to get past the constant “whining” and “bickering” toward God. God tells me in Isaiah 61:2 that he is my comforter. Though my heart is broken and it hurts, he is my comforter. He comforts me in my time of mourning. In verse 3 he talks about how he will bring joyous blessings instead of mourning. So I strongly believe that I don’t have to wake up and whine to God about my feelings. He is already taken care of them. I need to learn to come to peace with myself and the fact that HE is my joy and my strength and HE is all I will ever need. It gets even better! In verse 8 the Lord says that he is a God that LOVES justice. So I know and can have peace that God will show justice to all those who do me wrong. I really have nothing to worry about. Besides isn’t worrying doubting God? I choose to put my confidence in God. Philippians 3:3 tells me that my confidence should be placed in Jesus and not in human efforts.

Please, I hope you all understand that I am not saying that there is anything wrong with crying out to God in pain because your heart is hurting. Believe me I have done my fair share. All that I am saying is do not make your quite time all about you and your feelings. I encourage you all to open up your hearts and allow God to heal your emotions and serve justice on your hearts. Take your relationship to a deeper level and start asking God what HE desires for you. His word tells us that all of our desires where nailed to Jesus’ cross. God can speak to your hearts it you only open it up and LI

Joy!!

Well, this is my first blog. The Lord really impressed on me that I needed to start doing one of these things because Facebook doesn't allow me to write everything that's on my heart in one status update. So now I am free to spill my heart and not be limited. Also, to have what God is revealing to me in writing so that I can always go back and reread it to remind myself of the constant pressing forward that I am feeling. Plus, it helps me to write these feeling and little revelations down so that I don't forget them.

God truly gave me this revelation today. During some quit study time. I read over a scripture that a dear friend of mine sent to me because they felt led to do so. Later today I opened up the word and began to read that scripture(Philippians 3:12-16). After wards, I go back a few verses to read and did some studying through out the Word. God immediately spoke to me. The past couple of weeks I felt the enemy trying to attack my joy. I began to think about this and pray about it and this is the revelation that God gave me. I hope that it encourages you the way that it has encouraged me.

"Superficial happiness" is dependent on our circumstances. Christian joy is clearly different; it is rooted in a person's personal relationship with the Lord, and it is resilient even in the midst of suffering or even death. Joy comes in knowing that whatever happens, God will use everything for our ultimate good(Romans 5:3-4). Believers also have joy from the dynamic presence of God's Spirit in their hearts. The real secret to a joyful life is in being continuously "filled with the Holy Spirit"(Eph 5:8). The life and attitude of believers are not defined by outward circumstances, but by their relationship with a living God who reigns over all their circumstances. It's amazing to me to see that Jesus spoke more to his disciples about having joy in their hearts(John 15:11). It seems to me that the enemy is trying to attack the one thing that pretty much gives us life and that's the joy of the Lord. I mean think about it, "The joy of the Lord is my strength"(Nehemiah 8:10)?? I would think that if I am strengthened by the joy of the Lord, then the devil would do anything in his power to prevent me from obtaining that joy on a daily basis. The thing is that, I have to fight for it!! Sure, I believe there will be days when I wake up and have my coffee and feel joyful and peaceful. I also believe that there will be days that I will have to fight for that joy and protect it. Defend it at all costs. My heart bursts with joy knowing that I must be doing something right. The devil can feel the heat of what God has on the horizon for me. This feels me with joy and makes me a happy camper. :)